new places

Moving to a new city is scary. You don't know anyone aside from your roommate who you met over craigslist. And you don't know very much about him other than the few sentences he decided to divulge on the internet. At least his dog is really friggin cute.

You also don't know where you're going or what streets are even considered main streets. Or which streets are one way which is terrifying. In fact you're beginning to rely on your Tomtom that you've named Bonnie more than your own sense of direction. Which let's face it, kind of sucked to begin with.

You don't know which areas of town are "safe" and which ones aren't. You don't know whether you'll be mugged walking the one mile to the grocery store. For all you know the worst that could happen is breaking some sort of pedestrian law you weren't aware of since you just moved here. In fact you don't happen to know any laws in Oregon and could be breaking ten right now without even knowing it.

It's a big pile of scary. It's also exciting. But mostly scary.

The distinct lack of feeling like this is home doesn't help eliminate the scary. It certainly doesn't help that your room has one piece of furniture in it which just happens to be a bookshelf. Like you can sleep on that for the night right? Maybe all those cardboard boxes that are half unpacked could be turned into some furniture? At least the floor is pretty comfortable, relatively speaking. It's not wood so that's a plus. In fact it's pretty plush compared to some of the places you've slept before.

So you tell yourself to just suck it up and get over any fears you currently have. This is your dream. Remember four years ago when you wanted to go to college in the Northwest and were talked out of it? Remember how you cried and moped around for a week declaring that your life would be over if you had to stay in Arizona for college? Well you survived and now you're exactly where you wanted to be. and now Sure, it's slightly frightening, but you knew it would be. Anywhere new is scary.

So suck it up and just live.